Wednesday, April 20, 2016

If You Could Take a Pill....?




The other night, I was tucked up in bed reading and I came across  a spanking article that was interesting and unique in some ways.  As a spanko, I did not agree with everything the author said, but there was one passage that really made me start to think.  Like a little seed, the question posed seemed to grow and grow in my mind.  I decided this was also a perfectly good seed to plant as a post.


             "If you could take a pill and not be a "spanko" person, 
                                         would you do it?"






Wow!  I had never even thought about such a question.  Since I really believe a spanking fascination was a part of me by the time I was five years old, I don't have much memory of being any other way.  As a child I wasn't particularly ashamed of my interest/obsession, but I knew instinctively that maybe it was not something to share with others.  

In my child's mind, it was just part of who I was.  Like having freckles or loving chocolate ice cream the best, or being the oldest child in the family.  I did have a secret stash of clippings I had cut out of comics or magazines and passages I had copied out of children's books.  (Yes, Meredith, I do remember that line from Ramona Quimby.)  I took them out sometimes and pored over them.  Never worried about my mother finding them; she was a great mom but a terrible housekeeper.






So as a child I was fascinated but not frustrated.  By the time I was 16, I think I was beginning to recognize that my intense interest was also linked to wanting  to be spanked by a boy.  Since Sam and I met when we were 15, this "boy" was Sam from that point on!
Obviously, he did not realize any of this at that time!  Spanking would rarely come up in conversation, but I do remember several times when I clumsily attempted to goad him into spanking me.  I seriously doubt he would remember an instance of this; he would probably have thought I was being a bit stupid.







I soon gave up on any hope that it could ever be a part of my real life.  So if we return to the question, there may have been times in my young adult life I would have taken such a pill if it had been offered.  In reality the fantasies did no harm to anyone.  They certainly became linked in my psyche with sex and orgasm by the time I was 30.  But the fantasies were very ritualistic; Sam was rarely part of the compelling stories in my head.  By that time it was carved in stone that I would never tell any of this to any other person.  Sort of sad, really, when I recall these things now.




Don't remember exactly when I discovered that spanking was a "kink" for some people.  I do know that anything that included leather or collars was a BIG turn off.  My fantasies were always more homey and personal.  The spanking was always accompanied by love.



So let's jump forward to today.  If someone asked me if I would like to take a pill and not have this desire to be spanked, I would most adamantly say, "No, thanks!"  Now that I am having this need met, I feel like my life is enriched in a way that would not be possible for most women.  They could never know this "high" I feel, and I actually feel a bit sorry for them.




  

On top of this, I have met and become friends with other women  like me!  This has brought me so much happiness and satisfaction that there is no way I could actually say thank you in a meaningful way.

Finally, spanking and ttwd has turned a good marriage into a relationship that has fulfilled both Sam and I in a way I could never have dreamed attainable.  We  have a window into each other's soul and the capacity to bring great joy to the person we love most in this world.






Of course, I am most interested to hear what you have to say about this question.  Would you take such a pill if it were possible?
  
                         Your chance to speak from the heart. 




22 comments:

  1. Hi Ella, not a chance, I love my spanking life!! And so does hubby!
    love Jan, xx

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    1. You are right, Jan. And whenever I visit your blog, I can feel the closeness it creates for both of you.

      Hugs Across the Pond,
      Ella

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  2. Never - I'm not fond of any pills but this one absolutely, positively never.

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    1. Hi Sunny,
      Reading your comment made me also ponder how it would change things for you writers among us. Wouldn't the stories you create feel empty without the spanking as part of the characters' persona?

      Ella

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  3. Not on your Nellie! Harry took 43 years to overcome his revulsion to the idea of spanking me. We have a lot of lost time to make up!
    Rosie xx

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    1. This comment made me smile, Rosie. :) I do think of how many years I missed out on ttwd because I was so afraid.

      Hugs Across the Pond,
      Ella

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  4. Ella,
    Great post!
    That pill would be very bad medicine......... no, thank you! Spanking at this point in our marriage has greatly enriched our relationship. We were slipping into the ordinary and ttwd bounced us right into fun, fireworks and so much more.
    Again, great post.
    Meredith

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    1. Mere,
      I loved how you described the before, "slipping into the ordinary." That about sums it up. I do not feel ordinary at all anymore. I feel extraordinary!

      Thanks,
      Ella

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  5. Hmm, it's not as cut and dry for me as it is for the others so far. I've thought about spanking my whole life too. I would watch old westerns to get a quick glimpse of a sassy young woman being spanked. I got brave enough to talk to Luke about it early in our marriage and he would spank playfully but it was never enough for me. As the years went by I put it away. I didn't know there was a thing such as dd and that was what I was truly looking for. I like being spanked but I desire the whole package too. Both Luke and I say we wouldn't go back now but the road here has been awkward and lonely. I've never found the same connection that many of you have had in blogland. Still hoping maybe someday it will happen. Some days I wonder if fantasies are better kept secret.

    Hugs,
    Clara

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    1. Your comment, Clara, was a very thoughtful and deep one. I think my connection started to become strong when I put myself out there in this blog. Big scary step out of the fantasies in my head. And the journey seems to be different for each of us.

      Hugs,
      Ella

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  6. Seeing where I am today, I would not...Master and I savor having this 'little secret' part of our lives. Our closeness would not have been possible, I believe without the spanking...the M/s part. For me it is very personal, Master had lots of work to do to tear down walls, to get me to trust....to let go....
    hugs abby

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    1. Abby, I think you are exactly right about the closeness. I do not really understand why it is so, but the submission is a huge part of this dynamic between the two of us.

      Hugs From Ella

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  7. Never in a million years! I've never thought of it as a bad thing, not ever, even when it was a secret from the rest of the world. For me it would mean giving up what I have with Nick, the friends I've made here - who I feel closer to than most RL friends, and my life long friend Cassie. Losing all that would make my life very dull indeed.

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    1. PK, you are a rare find! I will never know how so much of your personality can shine through in your words. You are right about the friends here, too. There is something special about sharing the truth of who I am that forms a bond.

      Give a Hug to Cassie for me,
      Ella

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  8. No, absolutely not. Having my spanking desires fulfilled by a truly wonderful and loving man now makes me complete in a way I never thought possible. The happiness ttwd brings us could never be replaced, that pill is not for me!
    Great post!

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    1. Thanks for your compliment, Laurel! I don't think I will ever run out of ways to explore that happiness and try to express it in words.

      Ella Ever After

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  9. Hey Ella...I've worked too hard to like myself the way I am...so there is no way I would take a pill to change anything about me. Am not really a spanko at this time but think Matthew was leaning that way and I've learned to never say never. There is one thing I would take a pill to change...my body! ;)

    Hugs and blessings...Cat

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    1. Good for you, Cat. We like you just the way you are, too. "Nothing is Carved in Stone." And about your one thing...why is it so easy to appreciate the imperfections in others and so hard for us to treat ourselves the same way? That is truly speaking from the heart.

      Ella is Sending you a Virtual Hug!!

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  10. Hi Ella, great post and great question! Given that we haven't practiced ttwd for a long time now I'm not sure. Nah scrap that, I don't think I would want the pill as ttwd brought us more intimacy and connection and although we haven't practiced for a long time, many of the benefits it brought to our relationship have remained. Besides, Rick did surprise me last weekend with a yummy light spanking :) The first in a long time and I don't think it's the start of any regular action.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Your words today are very special, Roz. It makes me feel safe to know that the intimacy and connection can remain. Hope that more surprises come your way, Roz.

      Hugs From Ella

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  11. No to a pill. If there was a pill that would make P see things the way I do, that would be handy. The stumbling blocks are less about my way take on spanking and more about his.
    hugs
    DF

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    1. Wow, DF. That is insightful and could probably be the subject of many a post. Would you give your husband a pill to help him understand this need in you? So that he felt as fulfilled as you do?

      Hugs Across the Pond,
      Ella

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